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May 20, 2009

Repair or Demolish?

I am finding more and more that people are suffering from a religious cancer that has eaten up nearly every healthy part of their spirit. Oddly enough, our religion, with its iron fisted teachings and oppressive practices is actually NOT the primary source of this cancer. Religiosity and spiritual tyranny are merely offshoots of a more serious and deadly malignancy. The very source of all these things has to do with our picture of who God is.   

The reality is that the picture of God that most Christians in America hold in their heart, is masknot only corrupt and inaccurate; it's outright untrue to the very core. It's an entirely different person altogether. This is not something that can be fixed or repaired. Most people attempt to slowly and methodically correct their misperceptions one at a time in hopes that when they're finished, they will have the real God. In other words they believe that they actually have the real God in their mind, but they've misjudged Him in a few areas, and once those areas are corrected, all will be fine. While this may be true for some people I have found that for many more, it's not even the tip of the iceberg.  

For countless Christians, their view of God is so twisted and fictitious that it's not even God at all. They have yet to meet Yahweh. The god they have been worshiping is not even an impersonator of Yahweh. He is something different altogether. He's a different person with a different heart and different motives and expectations. Nothing about him has anything to do with the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. He cannot be altered or restored into Yahweh. It just doesn't happen that way. 

The bottom line is that a striking number of sincere people have been duped and brain-washed into joining a cult. They go into it thinking that they are going to meet and begin a relationship with Yahweh Himself, but almost immediately they are handed an impostor. It was the typical bait and switch move, and they fell for it hook, line and sinker. A yearfake later, they are serving, worshiping and trying desperately to please an impostor that if the truth be told, they don't even like.   

Some people may read this and say to themselves, "Where was Yahweh when one of His children was truly seeking Him? Why didn't He step in and show them the truth?" My answer to this is that He did. Over and over He did, but most of us disregarded those checks in our spirit about what the preacher, author or Christian friend was telling us. He spoke over and over during those times saying, "That's not right.....that's not Me" and if you recall, you heard Him loud and clear. Most of us purposefully numbed ourselves to Yahweh's voice because listening to it could cause us havoc in our relationships we had built. We actually knew Yahweh in our heart, but we willingly traded Him out for something that would drug us and ultimately kill us. Why would we do this you ask. Because we gave in to the very power of religion. The fear of rejection is the power of religion. People continue practicing things they know in their hearts aren't right because they also know that if they take a stand against those things they'll be rejected by everyone around them. So they follow everyone around them deeper and deeper into a world of spiritual destruction. 

Once we break free from the Cult mindset, many of us follow the same predictable pattern of those who went before us. We try our best to salvage certain aspects of the cult-god because, "he wasn't all bad." We do this because there is still a place in our hearts that just doesn't get it. There is still something within us that believes we can have our Cult-god and Yahweh too. We're not ready to admit that we have been wrong about pretty much everything for all our lives. This is perhaps the biggest obstacle I see people wrestle with. To believe in Yahweh, means that they have to admit that they've wasted their entire life putting time and energy into a fraud. Most people I know are not willing to do that. This is why they cling to their cult-god so tightly and attempt to give him a personality makeover in hopes that he will somehow become Yahweh.  

I have found in most circumstances, a complete divorce from the cult-god is necessary. Getting to this point is the hard part because most people are terrified of what might happen if they were to actually abandon the god they grew up with. They also fear the in-between time where they won't have a god at all. This is precisely why most of us opt to fix the cult-god rather then leave him altogether. Unfortunately, fixing him is not an option, so divorce and complete abandonment is the only option.  

The problem is, for many people, leaving the cult-god is like a battered wife attempting to leave her controlling and abusive husband. Almost supernaturally she finds herself drawn back to his embrace. Amazingly, people spend the first half of their life trying to hold on to their belief in their terrible cult-god and then they spend the second half trying to let go. Leaving is easier said than done.battered Relationships like these usually end in violence or death. Most abused wives hate their situation but they aren't ready to leave. This is also true for people under the control of the cult-god. They're unhappy, but many times they're not unhappy enough. In my experience, a person never escapes the cult-god until they hate him to death. This is one reason why many Christian circles program Christians to live in absolute fear of "becoming bitter or angry." They know it's the last step before a person leaves.   

Understanding that the god many of us have grown up with is not Yahweh, is key to our healing. It makes it go twice as fast because you aren't dealing with a thousand things you have to forgive Yahweh for before you can love Him. It's much easier to walk away from the cult-god and come to Yahweh then it is to turn the cult-god into Yahweh. This is confusing for most people because when they asked God into their heart, they actually received Yahweh; however, almost every teaching after that was a description of the heart and character of the cult-god. This is why many people make the mistake of thinking they are one and the same. For healing to take place, it's imperative that you be able to separate the two. You must leave the one and embrace the other.  

This is why we are seeing the recent phenomena of people leaving their churches. This is happening throughout America and the world on a massive scale. Studies, reports, and articles about the decline in church attendance have surfaced from all of the major news organizations. Meanwhile, the "Christian world" is at a total loss for what to do. People aren't leaving because they found a better church; they're leaving because they found a better God. They tried bringing their new God to church on Sunday, but they were sternly rebuked and told to shut up. Eventually they had no other choice but to leave.  

The hierarchy of many organized religious institutions are now scrambling to adjust to the mass exodus, and in doing so they are desperately seeking ways to keep the people they still have. Predictably, they attempt the same feat of giving the cult-god a makeover in an effort to fool those who stayed into thinking he is Yahweh. Those who never knew Yahweh will buy into it, but for those of us who have met Him, nothing will compare. Knowledge of Yahweh causes a mandatory freedom to spring forth in a person's life. Being trapped under traditions, rules, and control is contrary to the DNA of the Spirit of Yahweh. Knowing Him requires freedom. If you give up the freedom; you give up Yahweh. They are one and the same.  

Darin Hufford

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    Yea that old cult god still shows up in my life everyday.Just something to be aware of the rest of my life.At least I am aware of him.

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    I'm glad you wrote about this Darin. Excellent post! I see our 'yearnings' for the old cult God tied directly into the liklihood of free believers making a 'religion' out of 'free believing.' Huh...? Did you understand that? I'm not sure I did. Anyway, the cult God expressed just about every form of legalism,exclusivism, moralism and so forth. I wonder how long we can journey with Him without creating some sort of structure which would surely open the door for said elements? Any thoughts...?

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    Darin Hufford

    I think people switch god's midstream. Once they do, their teachings and preachings begin to describe the personality of the god they love most. Religion will be formed ultimately by people who don't love others, but like the sound of this message. They'll have to make it a religion.

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    Thanks Darin! I think I have met Him!

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    David Joseph Brncik

    Hi Darin, Ive come to the conclusion that its either give me liberty or give me death. Its like poeple are going to eventually going to have to choose one or the other. A free man in a beloved saviour David

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    Darrin, you have made a case for the wrong god so who is the real God?

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    Darin Hufford

    God is love.

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    My daughter put it the best. After leaving the institution and reading a few books - (yours included )- that told her about the true heart of the Father she said this: Mom, I want to divorce my old god and marry this new One. I just don't know whether to believe whether he is real or not."
    We are finding out that indeed, he is real.

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    Darin Hufford

    Yes Barb, and I'm finding that instead of "changing our view of God" we have to come to the point your daughter came to. We have to divorce the wrong god and marry Yahweh. The difference is huge, and I don't think most people see it.

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    I needed this so much on this very day. Sometimes I get just a step away from insanity and desperation, because I try so hard to fix the old Guy. Yeah, it's really like trying to bring new paint to repair an old water-painting. Everything becomes even darker, messy and wet and ugly. The cure is to throw it away and let the real God Himself paint an entirely new painting. And like a wild hamster bite every voice that would dare to try bringing the old colors in the new painting. It's so important to fight our own thoughts. To say a big NO to our brain when it starts to bring religious thinking back. Even Peter himself made this mistake. He saw Yahweh face to face. Yahweh in human body fought religion everyday of His life, and still Peter made the mistake - trusted religion more than love.

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    Just a short explanation - I was refering to the event when Peter had a problem to eat with non-Jew christians. Paul had publicly explained that Peter was wrong.

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    It seems the 'cult god' and religion in general, happens when people attempt to recreate a relationship with God through a predecessor's relationship that THEY had. We then depend on looking back and rehashing what somebody else experienced first hand with God. In a nutshell, we start cults/religions by attempting to have a second hand relationship with God.

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    I think the worst thing about religious spirit or whatever we call it is, that you can make religion out of anything. In 100 years there will be a denomination called Free Believers with special dogmas and doctrines. Every member of the denomination will quote this blog and our comments. Every doctrine will be based on at least 2-3 quotations from here. For sure, there will be the Quadrity doctrine and the Hamster doctrine. All the members will claim that Darin himself started the denomination. They will even claim this comment was a true prophecy. If Jesus and Paul couldn't prevent the process of "religousation" of Christianity, noone can. No books can save us. The leter kills, Spirit gives life. Every cult has their laws based on Bible verses. Our only hope is love and keeping it real.

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    Darin Hufford

    Very well said Myso!!!

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    Yes..very very well said Myso. There is a constant that is missed in Jesus words..God is not mocked..whatever a man sows..that shall he also reap..sow to the Spirit..get God..flesh..Get world..and disappointment. When you look at the disciples (us too) they constantly tried to make the spiritial..natural.

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    David Backus

    I remember one moment in time when I came home from church so upset and declared that I knew there was a God, but Christianity wasn't the right religion. As a matter of fact, I exclaimed zealously that christianity was evil. Of course now, looking back on things I realize that what I had was NOT Christianity. Yet I was right in that what I called christianity, was indeed evil. Thank you for that Darin. You always seem to speak my heart.

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    Miguel Gonzalez

    Well fellas i just want to say that for me is too a hard time, sometimes felling nostalgic about the past IC realm, feeling so lonely often, but i too want to say thanks Darin, for words that reflect what is in our hearts. From Venezuela. In the wild. Love for all.

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    Shannon Brown

    To leave the god I grew up with was necessary for my sanity. It was the scariest time in my life, but I HAD to take that step into the in between. Once I walked away from the cult god, He started slowly revealing Himself to me in such gentle and loving ways. Piece by piece He unraveled the lies of who He wasn't and beautifully replaced each lie with the Truth of who He really is. Like you said Darin, NOTHING compares to Yahweh!!

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    Thank you for this article, Darin. I think it will be of help to me. It has given me hope anyhow.

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    I have suffered from panic attacks about God for a very long time. I am really praying to be set free and your website is giving me HOPE.

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    I was a christian sincere about God and learning about him from the bible for years. It came a point when everything just seemed to go against myself and I decided to give in to myself and started my downward spiral of self-destruction. After spending perhaps a good part of a year in the wilderness, God called me out and dragged me on a journey, an adventure that's still ongoing today. The time in the wilderness was horrible for me, but without the destruction I would never have been able to let God build - the image, the self, the Him - that he wants to.

    Saying that, I do think this article is quite extreme. But I do feel that what you guys in America need now (and a good number of people in my country) is a great dose of extremity

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    Gotta digest this one. Hard hitting! Are you saying I can't go to church and know Yahweh? I am sure you have said elswhere that many of your free believer friends do attend church at times (or am I wrong?) I guess I have to assess my own motives about this one, too, and there's lots of complicated stuff in there. Hard to tease it all out. If it was just me it would be easy but none of us are islands, are we?

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    My dear children, the end is near! You have heard that the Enemy of Christ is coming. And now many enemies of Christ are already here. So we know that the end is near. Those enemies of Christ were in our group. But they left us. They did not really belong with us. If they were really part of our group, then they would have stayed with us. But they left. This shows that none of them really belonged with us. Galatians 1:6-7 (NKJV)
    6 I marvel that you are turning away so soon from Him who called you in the grace of Christ, to a different gospel,
    7 which is not another; but there are some who trouble you and want to pervert the gospel of Christ. This is not the gospel of the Lord Jesus!

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    Dave Delany

    You mention a cult, but not what it is. You refer to Yahweh, but tell nothing about him. A friend posted this link on facebook. I met Christ while alone in a coffeeshop, but he didn't announce who he was for three years. He is part of my life, and among my friends' lives. I'm not sure what your point is; do you believe Christianity is wrong? Why call him Yahweh? That is only one part of his totality. If you pick a name, what not "I am"?

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    Darin Hufford

    Yes, I believe that most of Christianity is wrong about the character and personality of the the one they refer to as God. They are not describing the true personality of God. I use the term Yahweh because that is what He calls Himself. It would be silly to list every single name given to God in an article like this. The name that I chose to use is insignificant to the heart of this article. I could just as easily used "I am" and the meaning of the article would remain the same.

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    Graham, the book of Galatians is about grace. People were moving away from grace... that was the other gospel Paul was talking about.

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    Darin, this is my first post as I discovered your website after reading your book "The Misunderstood God." And after reading through your blogs, listening to your podcast and reading your book, all I can say is WOW!!! What you are saying is absolutely true, and you use easy to understand examples to back it up! What you say is so commonsense, it has me scratching my head asking myself, How'd I miss that? I just only wish I would have known about this years ago. "Getting saved (something I forced myself to do because it didn't come naturally)" was such a painful thing for me, and all I can do is look at myself and say "no wonder!!!" Thanks Darin! I hope to be a regular around here!

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    Darin Hufford

    Damon, I'm glad you found us. You're welcome here. When you get a chance I want to encourage you to visit the forum. There are a lot of really great and mature Free Believers there. Have a great day man.

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    So true! My divorce is through, baby! Now I am so angry at the lies I've been told that I want to kick that lying bastard's head into next week. Yup, That's right! All this pish (Scottish term) that 'you need to stay to help change the church' is a way of manipulating me/us to continue to serve the god of the institution. File for a divorce now from that lying, manipulating son of a ...

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