Sometimes I think about suing those people who told me all that crap about hell when I was little. But then again I dont even know if they still live. And the sad thing is, that they believed all that themselves. Now it left me not wanting to live, but not wanting to die either. Because to live forever was scary enough, but to live forever in hell...so I accused God to bring me into this world.
These days I feel similar at times, just for other reasons. Its more that I feel like I am an alien...not really knowing how to be "normal" how to be real without being too real...how to connect with people and not just have those superficial contacts.
And so I try to survive.
A very important discussion here. I wonder how much psychological damage to precious people has been caused by the use of the devil fear teachings and hell bwing held over their heads. I also was in circusmatic and pentecostal circles for years. I thank Him all of the time for His grace by delivering me and my family out of that bondage. As my 19 year old daughter says..."Thank the G". I think that means thank God. It is amazing how the fear works, Honestly my daughter still is afraid of the rat that was basically the devil in Psalty the singing song book. His name was Risky Rat. Always lurking in the wings to scare the crap out of the kids. She told me there is a facebook page for kids tramtized by that junk and she is right. Sad.
Thanks so much Darin and Amy for this. Amy, you have a great ability to communicate by using personal examples...I like that becasue who can't relate?
This was an awesome discussion!! I related to every part of it!! I loved what you said Darin when you said what you put your believe is what you will see! That is so true, when I first left the IC I questioned what I thought God spoke to me in my heart. Some of it I was so sure of, then as I started discovering more, I realized it was Him who spoke but because of "what" I believed I only heard and saw what I wanted to. Today I can hear the same words and it means so much more because my belief has changed from a system to a person. What freedom! Thanks again!
It helped me so much to hear "we put our belief in this and that..." I guess it was a few years ago when I clearly understood I could not put my belief in the savings account or the college degree. This alone was liberating, but the truths in this podcast took me the extra mile. Thanks.