The beginnings of my Christian walk included a personality cult. But as all humans do, his system started unraveling. As I was wrestling between what I saw and what his role was (God's anointed prophet for the end times restoration of truth), God literally brought a sign into my life to decide my direction. A friend snatched a pre-election sign from her hometown and brought it to me, not knowing the inner struggle that was going on. It turned out an unknown relative was running for office, to be a judge. The sign said simply, "Ahern, Judge For Yourself". I obeyed and couldn't be better of for it.
WOW! Great discussion. I totally relate, learning to trust myself has been a huge step. As you said Darrin over the years being raised in the church you hear things and your heart tells you this is wrong, but you figure you must be wrong so you go along with what is being taught because after all it is quoted all the time, your heart can decieve you! When I read the Misunderstood God a few years back I wept, I laughed, and I wept some more, as I read my heart on those pages. I thought of how I raised my kids, and I called each one apologizing for not listening to my heart, but the amazing thing was, they all knew my heart more than I did and said Mom how you lived meant more to us than what was taught and we get it, its ok. Thanks for sharing your journeys again! Awesome stuff! :)